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I can't hold a grudge

 Have you been upset for not being able to hold a grudge? I did. I am. Now. I'm upset I can't stay angry with you for more than a day when you can be upset with me for a week. I'm upset I  can't stay angry with you for more than a day if you said the wrong things when you can be upset with me for the wrong things I say longer hours on end. I'm upset I can't stay mad at you when you say the words "I'm sorry" when you can stay mad at me even after I say "I'm sorry" a few times. I'm upset I can't stay angry with you for being tardy when you can be upset with me when I forgot to tell you I'll be slightly late and that was just 10 minutes ( this has been months but I still can't get over this) And I realize I can hold a grudge since I've met you and that meant something. I really do love you down to my core.

Reminder: Be Proud of Yourself

Being proud of yourself is just another way of saying you have a strong sense of self-worth. People who are proud of themselves tend to have a great passion for life, fell content and grateful, and are excellent at motivating others. Many women are blessed with this predisposed nature to be nurturing, caring, and encouraging for our loved ones, but in a strange twist of irony, often sabotage their ability to feel proud of their own accomplishment. Women, in general, tend to be caretakers and focus more on something that is learned from childhood. Women tend to feel guilty when they are focusing on themselves. Some think that do not deserve happiness. Once they realized that they are worthy of feeling good, and they learn how to be kinder to themselves, they notice that they are even better spouses and mothers because they have filled their one "love tank" first. Feeling proud of yourself will only motivate you to move forward with your short term and long term goals, therefor

Feeling: Sad,betrayed.

Decided to start an online journal today just for myself. As I grow older I tend to think about a lot of things. this just to help me unravel things and keep them flowing and move forward. I've been on a business journey ( i won't say what here) with my cousin. my older cousin who I trusted and look up to.  this is a big group of us. most of us related and grew up together, the issue was this; I asked her a question. Genuinely asking.  basically if we were on the same page.  I wasn't sure that's why I asked in the first place right? Of course, she explained to me the right understanding because I was a bit off course. and I thought that was it. but a few weeks later I heard from another cousin that she complained about me. complaint that why I was slow at understanding and she was frustrated. And again from my sister just 2 days ago. I'm sad to hear that she had to go behind my back to do that. in my defense, you can't expect someone to understand something at t